Rest Your Bones With Me...

Currently Listening to:

Sunday Morning by Maroon 5

Sunday morning rain is falling.
Steal some covers share some skin.
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable.
You twist to fit the mold that I am in.

You know, even as a seventeen year old, all I want is to be happy. OK, of course I want a boyfriend, of course I want to go out with friends every night, of COURSE I want Matt Damon. As much as I try to resist the trappings of adolescence, I can't deny these urges. But however juvenile my wants may sound, all I want in the end is just to find something to make me happy.

I know, I know. Cheesy. But lately I've been watching people get so narrow-minded and focused on the short term that they lose sight of what they really want to accomplish. They start to lose sight of all there is to be thankful for: the sound of music in the open air, the pucker of lips against a tart lemon, even the good Seattle weather that decided to make an appearance on a Monday in March.

"Things just get so crazy, living life gets hard to do."

I agree, Maroon 5, I agree.

Most people know that I would be the first one to jump up and start complaining about school and how good grades are so important and about how you have to make a good impression for colleges etc etc etc etc etc. And I'm sure many people would agree with me. But just because I believe it and you believe it, doesn't make it so. You know? No?

Okay. In ToK [Theory of Knowledge], we are learning about truth and certainty and knowledge claims and doubt. We read Plato's The Cave which, more or less, raises the question of "how do we know what we know is true?" [Pop Culture Reference: Plato's idea is similar to The Matrix].

My point is that I think everyone should take time to reevaluate their perceptions of what is "important" or not. It's important for me to do well in school...but it shouldn't rule my life 100% of the time [I still need to work on this considering I woke up thinking about calculus].

What I'm saying doesn't make sense. I get that.

On a lighter note...

I never ended up talking about my day out with my Mom and Grandma in Seattle. We saw the ballet version of Sleeping Beauty at McCaw Hall. It was amazinnggggg! The costumes were gorgeous, the dancers were feathers being blown in the wind, and [being a band geek I had to notice] that the orchestra was pitch perfect and I wished I had the skills of that first clarinetist.

I went on my Teen Tix pass and so my ticket and my Mom's were only $5! It was a day for the kids and so the hall was packed full of little girls in princess dresses. There was a magician who did magic tricks before the play (how do they make the handkerchief disappear?) and all of the kids loved it. They stood around him in a big circle, in their fluffy princess dresses, and stood with their jaw dropped and unblinking. It was too cute.

I love pictures of people

It was a lot of fun. McCaw Hall is really great if you have ever been there. For just a place in Seattle to go see Operas and Ballets and things, it's pretty fun! I discovered the black and white setting on my camera (on my list of things to do is take a photography class) so I took tons of pictures that day.

I love the people standing on the second level, looking down at their subjects...

That's all for now!

-Haewon

P.S. What is to come? Some fashion-y type things [which admittedly is not my forte], some pictures of Seattle [yes, space needle included], and my substitute for a summer job...

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You May Say I'm a Dreamer...

Currently Watching/Listening to:

Oscar Acceptance Speeches/Imagine-Glee Version

"And the Oscar goes to..."

Those are words that I dream to hear someday. The power behind those words is so profound, so historical. To be recognized with an Oscar is one of the greatest honors someone in the film industry can receive. I couldn't even begin to fathom what it would be like.

Everyone has dreams. R. dreams of being a teacher, M. dreams of being an astronomy professor, E. dreams of being an anchor. Even A., who says she wants to be an orthodontist to adhere to the expectations set by her religious community, secretly wants to be a fashion designer.

What do I dream of? I dream of everything. I dream of sailing in a big sailboat in a sea of stars, of climbing to the tops of the highest mountains and diving to the lowest depths of the darkest oceans. I dream of living in Spring land, where flowers bloom all year round and tickle my nose with their pollen. I dream of opening up dusty books from chilly attics and falling into their weathered yellow pages. I dream of seeing people with faces different from my own; round cheeks, pointy noses, hard jaws, big bright eyes, coarse red hair, soft blond brows, thin dry lips, and big open hearts. I dream of saving lives; sewing up stab wounds, being a hero with dark blue spandex, yellow cape, and all with a gleaming scarlet A embroidered on my chest. I dream of every continent, every opportunity, every closed door, every open embrace.

You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.

I hope someday you will join us, and the world will be as one.

-Haewon

P.S. My friend and I are going to go see Green Zone with none other than...drum roll please...Matt Damon! Surprise, surprise! It's our first official rated R movie in theaters as 17 year olds (even though I've seen rated R movies in theaters and out before. But my friend is a "good girl" and hasn't so I'll indulge her since she is indulging my Matt Damon craze).

P.P.S. I had Chinese all you can eat today. yum yum yummmmmm!

P.P.P.S. Here in Seattle we have this law that says once you get your license (if you are a minor) you have to wait six months until you can drive other people in the car with you who aren't in your family. My six months is up on the 22nd of this month! Do you have that law where you live? Just curious:

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I cried...

And cried and cried and cried.

Kathryn Bigelow is my hero. First woman to win an Oscar for Best Director.

She's paving the way, and I'm headed down that road.

Hi, I'm Alec Bal--Hi I'm Steve Martin...

Currently Watching:

The Oscars

I'm in the middle of watching the Oscars and I have to say...I'm pretty impressed. Alec Baldwin and Steve Martin are hilarious. Because they have such experience they are really respected by everyone in the room and therefore, they can say pretty much whatever they want.

I haven't been very surprised by any of the awards won. Mo'Nique won Best Supporting Actress, Christoph Waltz won Best Supporting Actor¹, "The Weary Kind" from Crazy Heart won Best Original Song. It was all kind of expected, right?

Regardless, I love the Oscars. It is my dream to win an Oscar someday. I'd settle for being nominated. I used to want to win a Grammy in elementary school. And although I can carry a tune, it's not even close to something people would pay to hear. Then when I started theater in third grade I wanted to win a Tony. Then I decided I'd rather be on t.v. and wanted an Emmy. I always wanted to be a performer of some kind. I wanted to be on the Disney channel and I wanted to act. I've been a performer in some form or another basically since I was 9, but it wasn't until recently that I wanted to win an Oscar. And not for acting, like in the past. But for for directing.

I know I don't have to decide now, but if I did I would say I would want to direct. Screenwriting is up there as well, but directing a movie just has this amazing allure to it that I can't describe.

I want to go to film school.

Watching the Oscars is the perfect inspiration, too. I think the first time I consciously made the decision that I wanted to direct was during last year's Academy Awards when Slumdog Millionaire won Best Picture, Best Director, and Best Original Song among many others. For some reason, it was Slumdog Millionaire that made me want to be involved in the production of movies.

And then I started learning about the modern directors; Danny Boyle, Kathryn Bigelow, Quentin Tarantino, Chris Columbus, Jason Reitman...

And then I went crazy and lostmymindtheend.

-Haewon

¹: If you've seen my obsession post, you'd know that I'm a little obsessed with Matt Damon right now. I'm not sure why. I don't think he's the "hottest" [or whatever] guy in the world and he's not the best actor in the world. But I get these fixations. And it's Matt Damon right now. He's been nominated for best supporting actor at a couple of awards shows but hasn't won. :/ As much as I would love for him to win, it was still not surprising that Christoph Waltz won was it?

Granted the awards aren't over yet. But I'm just going to jump the gun on this one.

Speech that I like the best so far: Michael Giacchino's speech when he won Best Original Score for Up. He said that pursuing something creative is "not a waste of time". It's simple but something that kids need to hear, something that I need to hear.

Best performance: The dancers performing to the scores of the nominated movies. It was really creative and there were some street dance elements in it. Very cool.

Funniest Moment: Ben Stiller as an avatar. Haha, that guy.

P.S. Any guesses on who is going to win Best Picture? I've never seen the Hurt Locker but it seems to be a favorite this year. I'd say either that or Avatar. It's hard to say with the Academy Awards. They vote differently than the Critics.

I'll be back with more on the Oscars!