Friday, July 20, 2012

Let's Be Rulllll Here....

Let's face it, readers. I ain't gettin' any younger.

Alright, sure I'm only 19 years old, but I could have sworn that just yesterday I was 12 years old. I mean, I hate to admit it but my mom does still schedule dentist appointments for me and cook me dinner (don't worry, I've been doing my own laundry since before I had braces). So it's understandable that I still feel like I'm ten years old, right?

But time is escaping me because in three months I will turn 20 years old and my teenage years will be behind me. And unfortunately for me, I have yet to experience all those typical teen things (i.e., falling in puppy love for the first time, having my first boyfriend, and even...*gasp* first kiss. But I've missed out on a lot of other things, too. I never had a rebellious phase. I never threw a big house party while my parents were out of town or went to parties or even really snuck out*.

And I'm kind of disappointed by it.

It's hard to tell if my expectations are reasonable or not though. I mean, I watch shows like Skins (U.K. version...sorry, I'm a snob about these things) and The Inbetweeners and Glee and see all these teenagers having these crazy and hilarious and dramatic adventures. And it's not that I'd necessarily believe that they were an exact representation of real life except for the fact that you hear all these teenagers and students talking about how accurate a portrayal these shows are of high school and it makes me sort of wonder...what am I missing out on?


It doesn't exactly help that my friends are, like me, subjected to a "boring" life full of strip mall hang out sessions and drooling over boys who we have no chance with. As far as we are concerned, everyone else is having an amazing time being alcoholics and sexing it up whilst we sit in a car in a parking lot at 11pm and decide to call it a night.

And my experience over winter break, the first break back from my first year of college, further suggests that I missed out on a lot during high school. One of the first sets of popular friends from high school to get their own place hosted a New Year's Eve party at their house, alcohol and all. And, yup, I was invited. I was never popular by ANY (and I mean ANY) means. But I was sort of on the fringe of all the social groups. I had some really good friends in the "it" crowd, meaning I wasn't directly invited to this shindig, but was welcomed nonetheless.

I drank, a lot. It was the first time any of them had seen me drink because 1) I was not cool in high school and 2) see number 1. But luckily for me, I learned how to drink my first semester of college so I was prepared for this party. And it was a ton of fun, just as I always imagined parties thrown by "typical" teenagers should be. So did I miss out on four years of that goodness in high school?

Maybe. I guess I'll have to still wonder for now. I'm not as concerned with that anymore. What I really am concerned with is what I'm missing out on now. I'm always so bored in my hometown. Where can I go to meet people? More specifically, guys? Where can I meet someone remotely attractive that also finds me remotely attractive? Where can I have fun, go adventuring? What am I missing out on?!

Or, is everyone kind of just as bored as I am?


*Well, I did "sneak out" once. But it was as easy as walking out the front door while both my parents snored loudly in their deep sleep. And it was snowing like crazy and my two friends and I met up at a park and hung out...woo.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

So Sensual...

I don't find typical "sexy" things very sexy. But I love the sensual. 

Friday, July 13, 2012


I'm pretty sure I've only slept in once this entire summer and you're telling me I only have a little over a month left until university starts back up again? Are you sure that's right?

Ugh. It's what I call #realworldproblems (interchangeable with #firstworldproblems, really). I've had a job this summer (at a major department store) and have been work-work-working nonstop. I mean, yes, I understand we do it to make money, but since when is summer vacation more work than actually being away at college? It's almost like I'm looking forward to the end of the summer so I can go back to sleeping in and staying up late in the dorms. Almost, if not for the fact that I just wish my summer had been relaxing lazy in the first place so I could be recharged and rejuvenated come crunch time!

Oh, well, I'm not going to complain too much more (at least not on this blog, anyway) because the reason I'm working so hard this summer is to save up for....

*offbeat drumroll on my blubbery thighs*


Yes, one or two readers. I'm applying to study abroad for spring semester 2013. Where, no one asks? Seoul, Korea! Should I get accepted, I will have one entire semester off from taking film classes and will be taking classes only for my sociology minor (and probably one Korean language course).

God, I hope I get accepted. If not, it will be quite awkward when I have to break the news to my professors who are writing my letters of recommendation.

Anyway, I'm off to bed (I know, I know, the sky isn't even dark yet. #realworldproblems of having to be at work by 8). Also, I think I hear my dog having an asthma attack. Gotta go do the doggy CPR, or something.



Tuesday, July 3, 2012

A Playlist

By Tavi Gevinson

So perfect. It makes me want to be somewhere else, in a different era.

"Beware of Young Girls" Starring Tavi Gevinson

I cannot express how much this makes me feel like overcast days and hidden streams and a world that belongs in a novel and cool breeze through white curtains.