Friday, January 10, 2014

I Will Never Stop Being Tired...

I constantly crave excitement, wish I had a more active social life, want to go on an adventure. The thought of living a boring life frightens me to my core. 

And yet, I can't seem to get off my ass. 

I'm constantly tired, recuperating from work and school on my days off and too tired to do anything active after I get off work. I spend my free days sleeping and watching YouTube videos and the thought of changing out of my warm, ugly, comfy pajamas is painful. 

But I'm not always like this. My freshman year of college, my semester abroad in Seoul, I spent all my free time doing something. 

I think being at home, or in a comfortable place, isolates me from the world. I feel like I don't need to be out, creating excitement in my life. And I think it's also the weather and the winter darkness that brings down my body's energy levels.

Winter is always a time of lethargy for me. I suppose it is good that I'll be leaving for Italy in a few weeks. I need the change. I need to give my body and mind a reason to be invigorated. 

I'm excited, and yet....I am starting to get so panicky about leaving for Europe. I've studied abroad before but this time I am going alone. I won't know anyone. My heart is fluttering and I'm getting that sense of fear that I didn't get the first time around. 

Three more weeks...

-A

12 comments:

  1. Hey there!

    Totally understand what you feel there, I'm pretty much a couch potato with dreams and fancies about becoming an interesting beach bum. Oh well.

    Good luck on your trip to Italy! I don't know what part you're going to but I was there just last summer and let me tell you, those Italians are NOT from this Universe. There's way too much cuteness, and don't worry everyone will be nice :), they're charismatic.

    Tons of luck!!

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    1. Thanks for reading! I'm headed to Florence, can't wait! I am definitely excited to have some Italian eye candy, although my boyfriend is from France and hates when I say that so shhhh ;)

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  2. Wow this is so true for all the sophomores! I can so relate myself to your situation. And then I guess all I do is blog. Lol

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    1. But at least the blogging is fun, right? ;) And we have the ability to have a great sense of community here!

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  3. Omg i sit on my ass all day just dreaming of doing going living somewhere else. And btw Italians are divinee !! omdayzz very charming btw if you want to check up my blog thats cool too :)

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    1. The Italians WERE divine! I'm heading over to check out your blog now! Thanks for reading :)

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  4. I think I know how you feel. I want do do so many things and yet all I do is dream about them and nothing ever gets done.
    But anyway, good luck on your trip abroad and I hope you have fun!
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    1. Thank you so much for reading and commenting! I had a blast in Italy. I'm heading over to your blog to check it out now :)

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