Gross...

I have spent way too much money buying my textbooks for school.


$262. I spent $262 buying my textbooks for Spring semester. And that was after going through 3 different websites finding the best used textbook RENTAL deals. Um, what?!


Golly, this "higher education" thing really adds up. I feed all my $20 bills into my student account for laundry as well. >:( I suppose I better double major in order to get my money's worth from this institution...


Grumpily yours,


-A

Back to the Roots of This Blog...

When I started this blog in high school, it was my way of being able to document my journey to college-dom (not a word? Right). It was my quest to figuring out who I am, who "Haewon" is. I was a junior in high school trying to work out what she wanted to do with her life and I, being the naive girl I have always been, thought it would pretty much end with the acceptance letters from college.


But let me tell you, in no way, shape, or form do I feel like I have ANYTHING figured out, nor can I even pretend to know who I am. I see all my university peers working towards concrete goals like their ending point has been ingrained in them from the start. Is that normal? Because if it is, it's a reassurance of something I already know: I am so the opposite of normal.


Whenever I ask other people in the film school what they want to do with their film degrees, they always tell me in these confident voices that they want to work as a film preservationist or at film festivals or they want to be a show runner or at some obscure institute or academy.


If you ask ME what I want to do with my film degree, I couldn't even begin to tell you. In fact, I couldn't even tell you with certainty what my major/majors/minors are. How is it that everyone else seems to have had this figured out a long time ago? Sure, I'm a late bloomer, but...really? REALLY?


I'm really just beating around the bush to let you know that this blog is going to continue until I find myself, or at least a part of myself, because writing is the only way I can work through things. I usually don't even know how I feel until I write it down.


So, here's to more to come!


-A


P.S. In an attempt to connect the loose ends of my life together, I'm letting you know about my other sites:
for my blog on celebrity photos and quotes: Synesthete Lemon
for my tumblr (music, quotes, and artistic photos): Tumblr
Flickr with my photos: Flickr

Roma Analógica...

I'm itching to study abroad. 

I have no idea where, but I know that I need to get out and see other things. I also know I won't be able to survive all 4 years at a school in California. No, I'm a true Seattleite. So to ease the pain of SoCal living, I'll punctuate my time with a study abroad.

Not Italy, though. Not because it isn't beautiful (just at look these photos, it's nostalgia for a romantic period at it's most potent) but because I want to go somewhere I can exercise my Spanish.

Spain is highest on my list, but somewhere in South America would also be amazing. Too many decisions (not complaining though. I do realize how fortunate I am at even having the opportunity to study abroad. Not ranting about my first world problems, here). 

But look at how beautiful this is. Definitely will have to try to go here someday. Which reminds me...

I need to start my bucket list.

-A

Roma Analógica on the Behance Network

Drowning...

A photograph by Mark Mawson

How lovely it is,

A place to rest.

How lovely it is;

To be so near the end.

-A

South America

The diversity within South America is staggering, mountains, glaciers, deserts and waterfalls. It has them all. Over the course of six months I travelled down Chile, up Argentina, around Bolivia and through to Peru. What I saw and experienced along the way will live with me forever.

South America

From Tom Robinson Photography

A World Away...

It's my hope that by this time next year I'll be on a study abroad. The highest on my list of places to go? Spain. 

I don't know what exactly attracts me to Spain. Europe has always been high on my list, for one. And I'd love to learn to be fluent in Spanish, I suppose.

But I think it's mostly that Spain seems like a place where I will find inspiration and excitement, a new understanding and love. (A love for the culture, not a romantic love. Although that would be nice too.)

I suppose I could find all those things in many places throughout the world. The hardest part about studying abroad is deciding where to go (#firstworldproblems, right?). But I don't want to make the wrong decision. I guess, how could you make the wrong decision? I don't think I'll go wrong with London or Salamanca, Lima or Dublin (I know, I know. Ireland, the rain, bleh. But I'm from Seattle, I think I'd really enjoy it!)

No, I don't think I'll make the wrong decision, wherever I go. Especially going to Europe. Think of all the traveling one can do while studying abroad in Europe!

I've been obsessing over researching different study abroad programs for a while now. So many things to consider. 

-A